It's been a few months since I made the biggest mistake of my life, so far. Most mistakes, I can honestly say I learn from. But, what do you do when the mistake is too much for you to handle. I cheated on my boyfriend of two years with somebody completely not worth it. The weird thing is, nobody was really disappointed except myself. It's like everybody expected it, & I proved them right. Everyone forgave me, including him. Happy ending, right? I'm so happy with him, but I'm not happy with myself. I feel like an awful person and I regret it everyday. I wish I could take it all back. I keep asking myself why it happened, and I never can get an answer out of myself. I don't know.
Now I'm realizing that "who i am is not what i did." There's so many more things that I am proud of. One decision does not define me. I can't let regret take place of the dreams I want to chase. So I guess that's what I learned from this mistake.
But every once in awhile, it just gets to me. & I hope one day I can forgive myself. I think that's the key to most things. Forgive yourself and remember that life goes on even if you're not ready.
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